September 1 2010

September 1 Temperature Back to Normal

Last night my temperature started to go down to normal. As I am feeling better, Victor felt that I could handle some interesting information. He told me that on Monday when we were at the hospital, a lady he chatted with asked him whether I am his MOTHER! Can you believe this?! Oh well.

I do have a normal temperature when I write this blog.

September 2 Fluctuation Again

This morning I went for a walk. Perhaps it was the poor air quality, my body started not feeling so good. My temperature went up again in the afternoon. Victor seemed to be sneezing too. It may be allergy due to the bad air. But it can be a cold or something else. (It is quite difficult to be free from each other's germs.)

In the past few months, my sole focus had been on getting ready for the next shot. Now that the shots are over and as I look ahead to the next stage, I felt so stuck as if I cannot move forward. Today I also read a book on health (from another breast cancer survivors) - it seems impossible for me to live such a life - eating healthy and organic food (they are expensive), making fresh fruit and vegetable juice every day and doing all the "right" things... So I felt quite discouraged. I really don't expect that it would be the hardest when I am close to the end of the tunnel.

I am praying that the Lord would show me what I need to learn in this part of the journey, that I won't miss out anything He wants to instruct me. I want to fight whatever infection (or fever) well. I pray that the Lord would give me wisdom and direct me to the healthy life style that is appropriate for me. May He help me to surrender and trust in His sovereign will in my life.