May 25 2013

 May 25, 2013

Yesterday I joined the BSF prayer group in Macau. We really prayed for Macau and the possibility of BSF pilot class. I am going to apply to be a Teaching Leader. God has called me to move ahead despite all this. [The oral chemotherapy makes it possible for me to travel to U.S. and receive training in their Headquarters in October.] The Lord purifies my motives in the experience. As a group we now shared intimately, we are even more united in prayer! They carry me through this illness. We know that we rely only on God. He will make a way for Macau.

I also had a supervision session with a social service agency. The Lord reminded me that BSF will take priority over my professional work. I have wanted to be in “full-time ministry” at age 50. Now the distinction between work and ministry is not that significant for me. Rather I am now to do only what God wants me to do, to be faithful to His call, not with my own strivings.

Today I have set aside a day of prayer, Bible study, meditation and reflection.

First I started studying death in the Bible. I decided to learn about death and dying from the perspective of the Bible. The first account of death in the Bible was Abel, unfortunately a victim of violence…

Should write my prayer letter:

May 25

Dear friends,

On Thursday I received the final pathology report. The cancer is indeed recurrence of the past one. I am thankful that it was not HER2 requiring an expensive target chemotherapy with bad effects on the heart. Instead I will begin oral chemotherapy beginning next Monday.

1) Please pray that the Lord will use the oral chemotherapy to kill cancer cells (there is no guarantee) and that the side effects will be minimal and tolerable. Only God can heal me!

2) Please pray for wisdom to do only the tasks the Lord lead me. I decide I will not go back to the www.goodfightdoris.blogspot.com because I will not be “fighting” against cancer as much. Rather I am focusing on finishing the race. [2 Tim 4: 7 I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith.] Someday when the time for departure is near, may the Lord help me pour out my life like a drink offering.

3) Please pray for both Victor and I as we adjust our ministry commitments. May the Lord grant us clear direction responding to His call. 

PS I am attaching my journal for those who want to know my learning process for the past 2 weeks.

Doris