April 26 2013

April 26 2013

I went to see the Chinese herbal medicine doctor and he was quite upset with my having a needle biopsy as it would let the cancer cells move faster through the body. I felt quite helpless about having these medical procedures and felt like cancer was now circulating in my body. Then Victor got the flu! I was quite alarmed and rushed back to Macau to avoid getting infected. I decided to sleep in the office to avoid any mosquitoes. It was unbelievable that there was one mosquito in my office, biting me all night and robbing me of the much needed sleep. Somehow I came to terms that I cannot control or escape from the mosquito, not to mention cancer. I realized that despite my efforts to take care of the body and have regular medical check, I could not have controlled the cancer or the circumstances related to the illness. I then have peace to trust that God has control over all this. May His sovereign will be done then!

Despite the lack of sleep, the Lord blessed my last class with the students and I had a good closure. I look forward to sharing my testimony with them in the days to come.  I reflect on my how much I love work! I feel a lot of life serving in ministries, working with people, etc. When a workaholic does not work, he/she feels anxious and guilty. Well if I don’t work, I feel lonely and empty! But there comes a time to only serve God in the way He desires – that may mean doing nothing but still we worship Him in Spirit and in Truth.